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Daddy-

You're on the ventilator.  It's been about 2 1/2   days. Daddy I love you. I've been praying for your healing.  I just got done again. Anytime I think of you- all the time- I pray. 

I can't believe you've been ventilated after doing so well.  I hate this. I want my strong Daddy back.

I'm comforted by the fact that we talked about your death and I know you're ready to meet Jesus. 

If you don't wake up, hug Him hard for me okay?

And then I think, maybe you'll wake up and have a story to tell from the other side. 

My heart is simultaneously at peace and shattering into pieces I can't catch. I wish I had more time with you. I wish we didn't live so far away.

I wish so many things that I can't make come true.  The biggest thing- I just wish- one more time- to feel your arms around me or have you pop around the corner with a snake or mask.

I promised you I won't lose my faith.

I don't break promises.  

I'll always follow Jesus. 

Daddy, please wake up. 

Please come back.

All my heart-

~k~

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