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Surgery Day

August 23 came and went. 

I had my stuffing taken out around 7am and tissue expanders put in. I’m super sore. My drain sites are painful. But I’m home. The Boy turned 20 months old and is staying with Mawmaw and Grandpa (he chose the names). I woke up with a surgical bra on, a ton of padding underneath and two drains.

Because all pain meds either break me out or make me itch, I’m on Tylenol and a muscle relaxer. It’s not painful- it’s super sore. Almost like someone got done beating each side of my chest with a bag of boulders. 

I get to shower tomorrow and I LOVE Dr. Beckenstein for that. 

More later. I need a nap. I was going to share my boobs here- but if you’re a woman going through this- you can PM me and I’ll show you the progression. I’ve decided not to share.

I’m a Previvor!!! No cancer in these boobs!!!

#unBRCAble #previvor










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