Death and Politics- Quarantine Day 69

In the past ten minutes I learned that between 5 different people I know, 11 people lost their lives today.

People with family. People who were scared, alone and facing the unknown. Family members who have had to call around cities to ask if any funeral homes will prepare a body for a person who died from coronavirus.

Family left with the thought that they didn’t get to say a final goodbye. They didn’t get to grieve the way we’re used to. No hugs. No kisses. Maybe a wave. If they were lucky. Kids. Old men.

People who left an imprint on the lives of everyone they touched. Like Jerry Pullen.

I can’t believe he’s gone. I can’t believe that in the last two weeks one of my friends lost her dad AND 6 friends.

Tonight is a rough night for me. All of the loss and my loved ones hurting so badly, being so scared and worried. Watching over kids and husbands or wives in ICU. it hurts my heart so much.

I wish I could just lift that pain from every one of them. You. It hurts me so much to see everyone losing so many. I’m praying for you all tonight. Every night. But most especially tonight.

In other news, the Alabama Lt. Gov. Ainsworth has set up a committee of businessmen who believe its time to lift the stay at home order. Because, you know, money.

Til next time...

~k~

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