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My heart is heavy this evening as I spend my first night alone in my new “apartment”. The downstairs living area of my parents home. The Boy is with his Dad and grandparents. Packing up his room today was just.... emotionally exhausting. He’ll be back with me in a week, but since my exchange surgery is in the morning, The Boy is best with them for the recovery.

My heart is heavy and my soul hurts for so many reasons. I have these emotions tearing into me and pushing me, pulling me into separate directions. I can’t remember the last time I felt at peace. Tonight my peace is found in Jesus. The one man who will never leave me or forsake me. I miss my son. I’m apprehensive about this next chapter of my life. I didn’t think I’d be here again. 

In the morning my bestie and I will head to the hospital where I’ll have my exchange surgery and then come home. My mastectomy and reconstruction journey will finally be complete.

“Yes everything else is worthless when compared with the infinite value of knowing Jesus Christ my Lord. For his sake I have discarded everything else, counting it all as garbage, so that I could gain Christ.” 
Phillipians 3:8

#unBRCAble #brokenhearted #heavyinmysoul #JesusChristisKing #gainingChrist  #thankfulformomsanddads #gettingboobsforveteransday #gonnabeokay #praiseGod

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