Ignore Me Like You Mean It

It's interesting to me that I've been given a chance to see life without Aaron around. We all fear the death of our spouses, some more than others, and while he is only on the road, he's not HERE. It scares the crap out of me to have him out there on the road, away from home, and it makes me realize everything I'd be missing if I lost him. There are nights that I just sit and listen to the house, it's occasional creak and groan, and I close my eyes and I can hear his voice, and feel his arms around me. Especially at a time like now, when it's really late, and I'm missing him more than normal. It's not even the husband side of him that I miss most, although I really miss that I miss my best friend. It's like the right side of me is gone, and I'm crippled without him. Hopefully he'll be home in the next week or so, and we are both busting our butts to find work so that he can stay home. We take so much for granted. I know I do. Things like gett

Well, winter is STILL here and the groundhog has predicted six more weeks of winter. Lovely. I'm so tired of winter. Aaron and I have made a decision that he will come home in a month or two, after our big bills are paid. I can't wait! I also can't believe February is already here. Scary. Bubba was diagnosed with heartworms a couple weeks ago. Those are one of the things we are going to try and take care of before Aaron comes home to work. I'm still applying at many different places, and hoping to find steady work, plus I'll be back at school in the summer after taking an unintentional semester off. The VA has only given me six more months of my GI Bill, so I've switched (again) to something I can finish quickly, and get a job afterwards. So... those are the updates... It's raining like crazy right now, Daniel, my oldest step-son will be 18 this year, and he'll graduate next year. Josh and Ashley aren't too far behind him. Aaron and I have also agree